This past week had everything to do with TRUST and everything to do with FEAR.
I put an enormous amount of TRUST into people I don’t know. This was scary for me but also quite liberating. I had to TRUST that my initial meeting with them was from a place of INTEGRITY and they were going to HONOR that integrity.
I made some pretty big decisions and I had to put TRUST into those decisions without seeing past the consequences of how it will work out because in all honesty, I have no idea how it will work out!
Once I let go of my FEAR, I felt a huge weight lift off my shoulders. Let me tell you, it was not pretty releasing that fear. I put myself through a helluva week but I reminded myself: I am a SURVIVOR; I am STRONGER than I give myself credit and I need to remember that I have everything I need to be SAFE, SECURE and HAPPY. I decided to TRUST and BELIEVE it will be okay…seems so simplistic doesn’t it? Sometimes the best answers to complicated questions are the most basic and elementary.
In addition, I had to TRUST that saying goodbye, although difficult, is a good choice when you know in your heart that you are limiting someone’s experience and you can’t give them what they need.
I also had to TRUST that in other areas of my life, somehow, some way and in some form I will receive the assistance I need. I must continue to move FORWARD instead of being paralyzed by fear and overwhelm TRUSTING that by doing so, ENERGY is created to attract more positive energy.
When fear and anxiety take over, they are very loud and it’s hard to hear the other quiet voice. This past week, I could hear my voice of wisdom but I allowed negative, fearful thoughts to create a riot in my head, taking over until I reached exhaustion. Once I SURRENDERED, the quiet calm of reason and instinct took over.
I don’t pretend to have everything figured out…in fact the more I learn, the less I realize I know…but for today, I trust everything will be okay, and for that, I am grateful.
With a smile,
Tina
