It’s All In Your Head…

March 1, 2011 By Tina Moore 1 Comment

First, I’d like to apologize for not having any blogs last week as promised. They were all ready to go but I had some technical difficulties, which I thought I’d resolved. Unfortunately that wasn’t the case and I couldn’t fix them in Mexico. Thank you for your messages and emails letting me know you’d missed them. I really appreciated hearing from you.

This particular blog now seems like a lifetime ago; however, I feel it’s important to share because that is how I was feeling in the moment. This happened to me a week or so before I left for Mexico.

Here is the scenario:

I am surrounded by beauty. A gorgeous view in front of me: Endless ocean with the seagulls, silver in the sky. The water is a dark but friendly blue. The sky is the color of a happy, robin’s egg. The air is fresh but salty…the smell of the ocean which I love so much. I have a cozy, soft blanket wrapped around me. My hands hold a warm, sweet chai. I am sitting, staring off at the view, my senses completely CONTENT, feeling JOY, PEACE and GRACE…a smile appears on my face, a light in my eyes.

I feel HAPPY.

Then, without knocking, barging in like he owns the joint, arrives my ex. He doesn’t ask to come in, he doesn’t lightly tap on the door to make sure he’s not disturbing me…no, he crashes in like a drunk on a stag night in a stripjoint. Loud. Noisy. Angry. Crude. Totally unaware of my peaceful and happy mood. I tell him to leave but it’s too late. He has sat down, and begins talking loudly, negatively and consistently. Lies. His monologue echoes in my ears like a distorted stadium speaker. I can’t get away.

Now, take that scenario and understand that it doesn’t happen in real life….my ex did not just barge into my apartment and start yelling at me.

No, he entered my head…

That’s almost worse isn’t it? I sit here feeling happy and content when suddenly he enters my thoughts, totally unexpected and unannounced, and destroys the moment of peace I was just enjoying. It’s so frustrating because IT’S IN MY HEAD!! THEY ARE MY THOUGHTS! That is the place I should have some control over.

I decide who enters and who doesn’t.

I decide how it looks in there….whether it’s organized, serene or chaotic.

It’s MY choice.

Yet, somehow he pushed his way in. He seems to have the secret password to get through and I find myself sinking into the negativity that follows: Sadness, anger, jealousy, disgust, pain, self criticism yet knowing it’s sick, dysfunctional and profoundly toxic.

HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH THAT?

I’ll tell you how you deal with it.

You go to your closet, pull out your running shoes, lace them up, grab some water and walk out the door.

You WALK and allow the thoughts of him to push you into an easy STROLL, which slowly turns into a JOG that turns into a RUN and then a full on SPRINT.

Wheezing, gasping, spitting, grunting, swearing and possibly even crying you FORCE him out of your head, you POUND him into the pavement and you LEAVE him in the dust.

THAT’S how you deal with it.

FEEL IT, MOVE IT, PROCESS IT and LET IT GO

It works. Try it. You’ll be glad you did.

With a smile,

Tina

THE Jog Blog – 17

February 17, 2011 By Tina Moore Leave a Comment

Tina’s Beautiful Moment:

Starbucks $3.25, four beautiful firemen in front of me ordering their coffees? PRICELESS

Happy Happy Joy Joy:

My running buddies are coming down in March to visit…I am so excited!

Song Stuck In My Head During My Long Jog:

(Martina McBride – Happy Girl)

Oh watch me go
I’m a happy girl
Everybody knows
That the sweetest thing that you’ll ever see
In the whole wide world
Is a happy girl

Tina’s Favorite Number:

17! And today it’s Jog Blog 17, on February 17th! It’s a good day.

February 10, 2011 – HILL TRAINING (85% pace for 2 min, repeat 5x)

I was suppose to cross train today but decided to run some hills. It was a good workout. I really pushed it and felt strong. The new shoes are good. Thank you LadySport!

February 11, 2011 – RUN 18K (Jog 10 min / walk 1 min)

I jogged 10 miles today at a 10 minute mile pace or faster. That equals 16K, so not the 18K I had planned. I miscalculated the distance. It was a good jog though. I stopped midway to do some stretches as my left glute started to bother me. In the past when I started running longer jogs I had to go to massage, so I have one booked on Wednesday at Ocean Wellness with Kathryn Gaudet. I’m super excited because we are both running the same marathon with a specific time in mind.

February 12, 2011 CROSS TRAIN

I am finding the exercises difficult today. Not able to keep my balance or just not being as strong as I’d like. My muscles are feeling tight even though I’ve been stretching. I don’t feel pain, but I feel like my muscles are holding me in as opposed to being more fluid.

February 13, 2011 – REST

February 14, 2011 – EASY ½ HOUR JOG

I didn’t keep to my run ten minutes walk one minute regime today. I decided to do a five minute warm up and then jog fifteen minutes, walk one minute and jog another fifteen minutes with another five minute cool down. It was a great little jog.

February 15, 2011 – CROSS TRAIN

I was far more fluid in my movements and felt stronger today. I feel great!

February 16, 2011 – OFF

Ug, my schedule is brutal right now trying to get everything done before I leave. It’s a challenge. My plan is to do hill training AND distance tomorrow. I have to get them in before I leave, so will be juggling schedules.

I had a massage today with Kathryn and it was fantastic. It’s great because she’s also a runner doing the same marathon in October so she knows what specific muscles get tight on joggers. We had lots to talk about. I asked her how she got started in running and it was due to her Mom.

I love this:

Her Mom just turned 60 and recently completed a half marathon in 2:20! She’s lost 70lbs and inspired her kids to get moving! I hope to talk to her and learn more about her story because I am very inspired. She is proof that you can start at any time.

Although I will be away next week, the blogs will still be posted, as always. Come back next Tuesday because I’ve got some fun and inspiring blogs to share. Please continue to send me messages; I love connecting with you!

A special note to my trainer and friend, Jody Kennett from Leapfit: GOOD LUCK ON YOUR HALF MARATHON! I’LL BE CHEERING YOU ON!

THE Jog Blog – 16

February 10, 2011 By Tina Moore Leave a Comment

A Great Saying Heard This Week:

Forgive the past, dream the future and live the present. Build a bridge and get over it! (I love that!)

Early Morning Facebook Status:

Tina has a face only a nap could love

Tina’s Inner Buddha:

Don’t look behind when you are running forward

That “Inner Buddha” moment was brought to you by almost falling off my treadmill trying to look at my own butt! Good metaphor for life though.

February 3, 2011 – JOG 9K (10 min run, 1 min walk)

I don’t feel very good right now. You think I’d learn but I was crunched for time so I ate quickly then hopped on the treadmill. Now, I will suffer for a few hours. Ug.

Glad I did it though! (Jogged that is)

February 4, 2011 – JOG 18K (10 min run, 1 min walk)

I was scheduled to run on Sunday but have to work so looking at my schedule over the next 3 days I decided today is the better day.

I jogged 14.4K instead of 18K. I had to stop. My back, hip and more importantly my feet were causing me great pain. I tried to run through it, not ignoring the pain but shifting my thinking to something else. Oftentimes that will work because it’s more my self-sabotaging personality kicking in than actual pain. This time was different. The pain didn’t go away. I also got a blister, indicating that the new shoes might be too big, although they felt fine.

When I stopped, I stood there and cried. I wept because I was frustrated, disappointed and in pain. I drew myself a cold bath and sat in the frigid water and cried some more. The cold water helps with the lactic acid build-up. Once I had a shower, I just took it easy the rest of the day.

February 5, 2011 – REST

February 6, 2011 – CROSS TRAINING

I did my usual 45 minutes of cross training. It was great. I continue to focus on the individual muscles. Cross training also helps me practice patience because the tendency is to rush the exercises, but that means I could do them incorrectly. It’s not about speed; it’s about accuracy. Patience is required.

February 7, 2011 – SPEED TRAINING

I ran 9 minute miles today. I did the same as last week and ran in miles instead of kilometers. I ran 3 repeats of one mile at a 9-minute mile pace. I put up a corkboard with some goals like my marathon time as well as some business goals. I have my intentions for living an authentic life listed and I have my motto. It’s a great way to focus on positive thoughts and key goals and not be swayed by the fatigue that sets in. It was a good work out.

February 8, 2011 – REST

I went to LadySport and Brett was fantastic as always. I explained what happened during my long run and he immediately had me try other options. We settled on some Mizuno’s, the original brand I’d started out with two years ago. He said the New Balance has a firmer arch support, which could have been too much for me. This would make my feet feel like they had to push over to the side, landing on my small toes.

What impresses me about LadySport is their intention. They want the best fit for you. They don’t want you running in shoes that are causing you blisters, sliding in the heel or don’t have enough support. They realize you have to put the shoes in action in order to know how they will fit, that’s why they recommend you wear them on a treadmill first.

If you have new shoes, run a shorter distance first, then a longer distance if you can. Jog for about 45 min to an hour and you should be able to tell if they are ok. I always find with new shoes that my feet burn underneath, however it goes away within a couple times of wearing them.

February 9, 2011 – CROSS TRAIN

Normally I would cross train in the morning but today I did it in the evening. I think the extra stretches before bed and the rolling will make for a good night’s sleep. My stretches are better now that I’ve seen Benita at Ocean Wellness. My spine was really out because my muscles are tight. I will see Kathryn Gaudet, Registered Massage Therapist, for a massage next week. I’m really excited!

On a separate note: I wrote in my other journal this week,

“I’m so excited. I’m excited for my life. Isn’t that awesome?”

It’s such a difference from two years ago. I am excited about the possibilities and opportunities that are happening right now…I owe it all to JOGGING and making CHOICES that are true to my INSTINCT. I owe it to living AUTHENTICALLY and surrounding myself with people who are the same. I am so grateful for all these BLESSINGS.

THANK YOU for your amazing emails and messages. I LOVE hearing from you.

THE Jog Blog – 15

February 3, 2011 By Tina Moore Leave a Comment

Tina’s Advice To A Friend:

Take your scale and put it in the freezer. Do not take it out until October!

Tina’s Moment of GRATITUDE:

I GOT A FREE TREADMILL! I am so grateful for this generous gift…and guess who found it? The fabulous Jody Kennett from Leapfit! Thanks Jody!

Tina’s New Nickname:

“Bendy” – I’m very flexible as Jody found out when we were working on stretches!

A Quick Review Of My New Balance Runners From LadySport:

It’s important to get new runners if you have lots of miles on your current pair. It can cause pain in your back, knees and joints. At LadySport, Brett had me try on about 10 pairs before I settled on the New Balance 760. I usually take a size 6 shoe, but these are a 6 ½. They are lightweight but have good support and a nice roomy toe area. I also love the small detail of the gripper shoelace so they don’t come untied. I’m not a big fan of crazy colors on my shoes, so these are a nice, tasteful and stylish looking runner. My foot did slip a little in the heel but once I laced them tighter they were fine.

If you are looking into buying new shoes check out LadySport’s guide to getting the best fit. Click HERE

January 27, 2011 – 10K JOG

I was suppose to jog 10k today but I will be honest and tell you I did not. I turned off my alarm at 5:30 in the morning, rolled over, and went back to sleep. Not happy about it but will accept it for what it is and move on.

January 28, 2011 – CROSS TRAINING WITH JODY

I am always so grateful to do a cross training session with Jody. She is FUN and KNOWLEDGEABLE. We focused on my core, not the upper abs, which she calls the ‘bully’ muscles but the deeper, lower and less obvious muscles, the stabilizers. As she put it to me (and I LOVE this),

“We went back to basics to build your fortress of strength from the inside out”

FORTRESS OF STRENGTH…is that not awesome or what?

She then explained:

“We are targeting your Transverse Abdominals and pelvic floor muscles along with your gluteus medius hip stabilizers. These are your two most important core muscles and all runners, walkers, and triathletes should be starting here and never stopping these exercises!”

So, although the exercises may seem easier, I can tell you they are tough if you do them CORRECTLY. To isolate those muscles you really have to take the time to set your positions and not rush the process. You have to be very aware that you’ve maintained your starting set position. I will do less exercises in my cross training now in order to set and stabilize, but I will be building the foundation I need to move forward to become faster, stronger and without injury.

I WILL BE A FORTRESS OF STRENGTH.

January 29, 2011 – REST

January 30, 2011 – 16K JOG (10 min run, 1 min walk)

Due to an emergency I wasn’t able to run my 16k. Being there for someone I love was far more important and absolutely non negotiable. Something had to give, and in this case, jogging was less of a priority.

January 31, 2011 – REST

I definitely needed another day of rest as well as a day to stabilize my eating schedule again as I didn’t eat well for the last two days. I’ll be ready for tomorrow’s workout with my new training schedule.

February 1, 2011 – SPEED TRAINING (Run 1K at 5:40 pace/km or 9 min mile, repeat 3x)

I ran 3.46 miles or 5.56k in my underwear today. That’s right, my underwear. And do you know why? BECAUSE I HAVE A TREADMILL! There is something liberating about jogging in your underwear…I quite like it! Did I miss the firemen working out beside me? Perhaps a little, but if I get lonely I can always go visit them at the gym.

Ok, I was suppose to run one kilometer at a 5:40 pace/km repeated three times. I set the pace right but forgot the machine was in miles so I actually ran 1.6k at that pace.

I did that three times to make 5.56k, including my warm up and cool down. I feel great!

February 2, 2011 – CROSS TRAIN

I worked out for approximately 45 minutes. I did squats with and without weights. Then I did a seemingly simple one leg lift but when you set the lower core muscles, it’s really difficult to lift that leg without engaging the ‘bully’ stomach muscles so I had to stop and reset my core after every few leg lifts. Then I did a side plank, one leg squat, side leg raise, seated cobra and normal plank. All of those exercises required the setting of the inner core muscles. If I swayed at all, or released those muscles and engaged the other ones, I had to start over and reset. I was frustrated but wanted to do it correctly rather than just get through them. It makes for less exercises per workout time, but more impact on the muscles I am trying to reach.

Don’t forget to check out the 8k, half and full marathon happening in October in beautiful Victoria, BC. Click HERE for more details. This will be my 42k on my 42nd birthday so it’ll be a party! Come CELEBRATE with myself and all the people who are committed to doing this run, it will be nothing but FUN! As of today, you still have 247 days to train. YOU CAN DO IT!

THE Jog Blog – 14

January 27, 2011 By Tina Moore Leave a Comment

My amazing sponsors who came to my rescue this week:

LadySport – New Balance Shoes! New Balance Running Shirts! Nike Hat! (that actually fits my small head), Sugoi Rain Jacket that turns into a Vest! New Balance Socks! They have a sale on till the end of the month so make sure you check them out.

Jody Kennett from Leapfit – Not only is she a fantastic trainer due to her knowledge and expertise but she is also a great life coach. It was a blessing to do the long jog with her and enjoy conversation that was good for the soul. It would be worth your time to check out her site.

Benita from Ocean Wellness – I am so blessed to have these amazing women in my life. Benita not only puts my spine back into alignment (and it’s been better the last few weeks) but she is the kind of person that makes you feel better internally (emotionally and spiritually) when you leave.

Renee Shupe from Redhead Business Solutions – I write but I do not know the inner workings of how the website runs. Renee always responds quickly and efficiently to my emails that usually have the subject line: HELP! Check out her site and see how she can keep your online life running smoothly!

Tina’s Favorite Meal The Night Before Long Jogs:

PIZZA!! I get this amazing fresh pizza with a salad and it just seems to work for me!

Tina’s Breakfast Before A Long Jog:

I start with a small bowl of organic oatmeal and then about a half hour later I eat a multigrain bagel with organic CHOCOLATE HAZELNUT BUTTER. Yum. Then I jog about an hour after that. After much experimenting with food, so far this has been working for me.

Tina’s Favorite Phone Call:

“We got another recruit for the half marathon!” Those texts, messages and phone calls are the BEST!

Tina’s Favorite Quote:

“There is something special in all of us – know what that is and work to that strength” That’s GOOD and Arsenio Hall said it!

January 20, 2011 – CROSS TRAIN

I have been sick for most of the week but focused on getting as much rest as possible. It felt good to be back into my training. I did 45 minutes of push ups, lunges, and exercises focusing on balance. I certainly wasn’t as strong as I’ve been in the past but I’m getting there.

January 21, 2011 – ½ HR HILLS and SPEED

I was really looking forward to today’s work out…when I’m stressed, I love the release hill and speed training gives me. I push myself, grunting, sweating, muttering and ultimately releasing all that pressure that builds internally.

January 22, 2011 – REST

January 23, 2011 – 16K (Run 10 min / walk 1 min)

I was grateful to jog with Jody from Leapfit. She took me on a beautiful route that went to the Capilano Fish Hatchery and Cleveland Dam. It was awesome. There was one long, steep hill that we ended up walking but I told Jody we will come back and do it again when I’m healthy. It felt great to jog long distance as I’d had insomnia the night before due to stressful, worrisome, anxious thoughts keeping me awake. I knew I just had to get through the night in order to jog it out today.

I didn’t jog in any of my new gear today because it was a long jog and you don’t want to be stuck half way and discover a seam is bugging you or your skin is reacting to a fabric etc. I will try my new shoes on the treadmill this coming week.

January 24, 2011 – CROSS TRAIN

I’m grateful it’s a cross training day as it’s pouring rain outside. Cross training to me is like spending quality time with each individual muscle. Each muscle gets to know it’s LOVED and CARED for…it’s kinda cool when you think of it that way.

January 25, 2011 – REST

January 26, 2011 – SPEED TRAINING

I went to the gym to use their treadmill and was limited to a half hour. When this happens, you have to get creative. Instead of running fast for 2 minutes and walking for 2 minutes I pushed it to running fast and hard for 3 minutes and then walking one minute…towards the end I was getting tired because I was really boogying so the last time I ran hard for one minute, jogged at a slightly slower pace for one minute then a slower pace (my normal rate) for the last minute. It was a good work out.

Today Benita from Ocean Wellness and her associate, Kathryn announced they are also jogging the October half and full marathon. What a party!!! I’m so excited for this run and it’s still 9 months away…plenty of time for you to train and join us! Don’t forget there is also an 8k jog and kid’s run too! Click HERE for more information.

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